I have a history of having a temper.
There. I said it.
I had been planning this last weekend for a while.
As I mentioned earlier, I love surprising people. And I knew that a puppy for an early Christmas present for our kids would be right up there with life’s memorable moments.
It did not disappoint.
In fact, it exceeded any expectations I had dreamed of.
I feel kind of stupid writing this title.
With four kids ages 2-9 there is always a busy season.
But I’m hoping some other moms out there can relate.
October 1st to January 4th is my really busy season. You thought I was going to say Christmas, right? Wrong. I still have 10 more days of all the kids at home for Winter Break. January 4th is my goal.
I am thankful.
Maybe it’s because today is Friday.
Maybe it’s because I’m listening to Christmas music.
Maybe it’s because I’m working on designing our Christmas cards.
Maybe it’s because today is Friday and I’m working on Christmas cards while listening to Christmas music.
(The above sentences are shaped like a Christmas tree. Just sayin’.)
I am feeling like my “old” self again this year and I think that is the main reason I am thankful. Folks, when you have your health — both physical AND mental — everything else can fall in line.
Last year the depression was waning but the anxiety…oh, the anxiety. It was still very present in my everyday life. At one point during the holidays, sometime between the craziness of Thanksgiving and Christmas, I went to the hospital with chest pains. Y’all, if you ever need to be seen quickly — and I mean QUICKLY — tell them you are having chest pains. It was “do not pass go, do not collect $200” straight to a room with a huge IV. In all seriousness, I was scared. I was scared that I was having the big one. I was scared that I might have developed a heart problem from all the stress of the previous 18 months. But mostly I was scared that I would live with anxiety for the rest of my life.
Everything turned out to be fine that night, it was my “just” my anxiety.
By the way, hospital staff should be better equipped to handle “just” anxiety issues.
I have actually been to the ER twice for anxiety related breakdowns. Please don’t judge. I’m just sharing my story. The first time I’ll write about another day, but let’s just say I left the hospital feeling worse than I did going in.
Back to today…I almost feel like crying I am so thankful. I am relishing the busyness of this season…horse shows, soccer games, swimming lessons, school work, NSA trunk-or-treat, Halloween and then the upcoming months of a revolving door of family visiting and holidays.
And at the center of this thankful heart is our Lord and Savior.
Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
We were really bummed when LC decided, on her own terms, to quit soccer at the end of the spring season. Like, really bummed. But her heart wasn’t in it and it was ultimately her decision. (And she wants to spend more time with the horses. See previous post.)